I had a thought; in between the madness of work over the last few weeks. It was like a scolding fork prodding my left bum cheek. The thought was simply; why? Yes, yes..i’ve had it before. Many a time if fact, when talking about my ex. But this time it miraculously resonated with the answer. … Continue reading No room for self doubt
Blasé about dirty windows
I hit a learning curve today. What happens when you roll out of church at 1.30ish on an extremely sunny Sunday and realise you’ve not made plans to see anyone that day? Panic? Another thing to add to the list of things i miss now that i'm not in a relationship. To be honest, i'd … Continue reading Blasé about dirty windows
£2 is not a lot
I have £2 in my bank account, this should last me to the end of the month. No, that’s not a typo. And yes, it's only the 19th... I'd have never envisaged just how many things you actually have to deal with when you separate from someone. We had a home, shared bills and bank … Continue reading £2 is not a lot
Poem: Crackle and burn
See, the crackle and burn of your grace? Sound sears through icy dark, Lays a hand on my face Like solar flares, your love purges, Frees the mercy you promise. Faith and trust born, merges. Nothing could be more simple; You. Love. Me... And all you bestow is ample Nothing's more harder to understand, Forgiveness, … Continue reading Poem: Crackle and burn
Poem: Stay
'Mighty you are', they say And how they revere your name They lift their heads to heaven Mine dips, with the heaviness of shame I'll sit aside and listen. But, In holiness, did you say 'compete'? Chapter and verse escape me For unworthiness nails me meek I endeavour to catch just a glimpse But I'm … Continue reading Poem: Stay
I hate weddings
I didn’t take a single photo. And it was a beautiful wedding. The fact that it was at All Souls, and it’s April…grated on me. And if I’m totally honest – I hated every minute. Please don’t tell the bride. I left the evening reception rather abruptly – dashing out Cinderella-esq after a lovely comment … Continue reading I hate weddings
Poem: Spectre
Let me see something real? I envisage your eyes, dark And the slant of your lips So untrustworthy is your soul. Dark, is the slant of your lips So untrustworthy is your soul Embrace the spectre you are Yield to your hypnotic appeal Tired of the spectre you are I Yeild to your hypnotic appeal … Continue reading Poem: Spectre
A ‘down’ day
So, I'm less than 100 metres from Church, sitting in All Bar One with my second large glass of wine... Now, worshipping God is not at the forefront of my mind, it's just the guilt that lingers. What's really making me want to go? Love? Not sure I'm feeling that at the moment. Actually, I'm … Continue reading A ‘down’ day
Depressed
Tip toe around the night speaks, They have enough to decipher of the day
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